In Mourning

Because I do have many real life friends that read my blog. I've decided to briefly post to let you know that my mother passed away on Wednesday night. Obviously I'm not in a blogging mood right now.

TikkunGer and I are having a great visit in spite of everything. G-d definitely works wonders and I'm blessed that he is here with me during this sad time. I'm doing as well as can be. Mom was terminally ill and in so much pain for a long time now. She is in a much better place that is for sure. I'm glad she no longer is feeling pain and the pain I feel is more out of selfish reasons.  I was supposed to go visit her this coming Wednesday. I feel cheated out of that visit. And, the fact she won't see me get married, or that my children (should I ever have them) will never know their grandmother; these are the things that sadden me most.  I can see the light even in these dark times; I have been getting lots of calls and emails from family, friends, and people from shul. I appreciate that more than anything.

And with that....I'll end this post.